Tuesday's Trap - Santa Part II

Most, if not all of us grew up believing that Santa was a real person who brought presents to good little boys and girls. Amazing that I believed that... being that I was not the best of little boys....but still got presents, and some pretty damn nice ones too. Why is it that we need to tell our kids or anyone elses for that matter that Santa Claus is real. We make him out to be the focus of Christmas rather than focus on the real meaning of Christmas - Jesus Christ. If most kids were asked the meaning of Christmas I think they would answer it is about getting presents from Santa. Christ would be a distant second. Let's look at it this way....Santa is giving me all these presents, and really I was not that well behaved this year anyway. Jesus is seen as more of a secondary church answer for why Christians celebrate the season.

Another reason I don't like the promoting of Santa is kids are being lied to (pure and simple) that first of all Santa exists. If kids look to their parents for truth and yet are being fed this, maybe you lied to them about more than just Santa. Look at it this way If you once believed in a man who knew what you were doing, who had amazing abilities, and who gave you nice things, and he turned out to be a fake, why should you believe in another man who knows what you are doing, has amazing abilities, gives you nice things--Jesus Christ? If you get burned once, why get burned the second time? Wouldn't it be better to be honest with our children right from the start, and teach them the difference between truth and make-believe?

Maybe believing in Santa is just an escape for having to believe in Jesus. Some extreme Christians believe we should burn a likeness of Santa in church every Christmas. I am not at all saying we do this. Obviously Nicolas was a man of God in his day, and he would probably be extremely embarrassed at how he is portrayed today to the point of being the meaning of Christmas over Christ. The gift of giving is something we can all do. It's better to remember the real Nicholas, who can serve as an example of how to really keep Christmas. In society today, we give to those who have at Christmas, and maybe remember those who don't have by donating a can of soup, while giving family members a new PlayStation, or Ipod or computer or toy or _______ fill in the blank.

Christmas has obviously gotten away for what it was intended to be, but it does not mean I can't change myself where I think I should or where God thinks I should. Maybe Christmas, at least when it comes to giving should focus more on Matt. 25 - to feed the hungry, help the sick, clothe the naked, invite the stranger, give to those in need instead of want, etc. This is just my opinion of how Christmas has evolved. You may have a totally different one than mine. Would love to hear it. Talk to you again about a similar matter at Easter....but first let me tell you what I want for Christmas! Merry Christmas...I'll be back in the new year....

Sunday's Santa Part I

Most who know me know I really don't care for the mention of Santa Claus at Christmas. Especially when it is used by Christians, I mean others don't know any better. Here is a brief history of how Santa Claus began. I will reserve comment for later this week on my own personal feelings toward Santa and Christmas.

For 22 years Nicholas watched over his church. He loved having children sit on his lap while he told them stories about Jesus. One of his other joys was gift giving. Once a man in his church went bankrupt. In order to pay his bills the man was going to sell his three beautiful daughters into slavery, a common practice in those days. When Nicholas heard about it he collected an offering and in the dead of night tossed the bag of gold into an open window in the man’s house. In other cases, if the windows or doors were locked, he would drop the gift down the chimney, which often had stockings hanging nearby to dry from washing.

Nicholas died in AD 342 on Dec. 6. By then he was well known in the area. Many Christians began to follow his example in Christ and give gifts to the poor. It became popular to hold a feast and worship service in his memory on Dec. 6. People would even dress up like him, hold children on their laps, and give them gifts.

Nicholas soon became a patron saint, like a sports hero. In Holland the Dutch pronounced his name as Saint Nicklaus. As they came to America and spoke quickly, to the untrained ear it sounded like they were saying "Santa Claus." The Germans, because of the Lutheran Reformation, focused their attention on the Christ child. In German the baby Jesus is called the "Krist Kindle." Again spoken quickly this would sound like "Kris Kringle," which later was applied to the Santa Claus legend because Christmas was celebrated near the time of St. Nicholas’ day.

The Puritans, however, made it illegal to mention any saint’s name. During the 1600s it was forbidden to light a candle, exchange a gift, or sing carols. Still, people will celebrate what they want. If we don’t teach them how to sing and feast and pretend to the glory of God, then the world will teach them how to do it without glorifying God. That’s what happened to St. Nicholas.

In 1820 a dentist named Clement Moore wrote a poem for his sick child to cheer him up. Called "Twas the night before Christmas," the poem told children that St. Nicholas lived at the North Pole, drove a sleigh pulled by eight reindeer, and had a tummy that shook like a bowl full of jelly. (Actually he was probably thin from fasting.) Forty years later Thomas Nast drew a cartoon picture showing St. Nicholas with a long white beard (probably true), rosy cheeks (probably not), dressed in red (true), and with a sack of toys on his back (probably not, since the people needed money and food more).

Just a little history on how Santa came to be....more later...

Friday's Facebook

I read this post on a friends facebook wall. As I was reading I thought how true it is, at least for me. I often think about the shrinking church (hey I am one of them) and wonder why people are not going anymore. I guess everyone has their reasons, I am sure I have mine. More important question, is the relationship with God. Is it there? Anyway, here is the post I read....

Think about what you are reading ok. because it's the truth.

Why do we ((sleep)) in [[church]],
But stay ((awake)) through a [[2 hour movie]]?
Why is it so ((hard)) to talk about [[God]],
but so ((easy)) to [[Gossip]]?
Why are we so ((bored)) when we look at a [[Christian magazine]],
but find it ((easy)) to read [[Playboy]]?
Why is it so easy to ((ignore)) a [[Godly]] Facebook Wall Post,
Yet we ((repost)) the [[nasty]] ones?
Why are ((churches)) getting [[smaller]],
But ((bars and clubs)) are [[growing]]?
Think about it, are you going to repost this?
Are you going to ignore it, cause you think you'll get laughed at?
Would You Have Opened This if it Said.... Read This In Gods Name.

80 % of you wont repost this.

Jesus Christ said:
"If you deny me in front of your friends I will deny you in front of my father

Monday's Message

On Thursday Steve was transferred to St. Boniface hospital in Winnipeg where they did an angiogram and found out he had an "ischemic" event. I was told that when this happens blood flow to the heart muscle (myocardium) is obstructed by a partial or complete blockage of a coronary artery (it is good to have a couple of nurses in the extended family. He had (I think) 4 blocked artery's 3 partially blocked and 1 completely blocked. They put a shunt or stint in the blocked one and cleared the others out. Once that all took place he was feeling much better. He was transferred to Portage la Prairie on Friday and released on Saturday, and except for some dizziness and tiredness he is back to normal. We got to visit on Saturday evening for a few hours and stayed at his place that night. Had a really good talk about how God worked in all of this, not only in what we can see, but what we can't see (future results). On Saturday Steve went up to Elkhorn to get his van and stuff and he met two of the people who were there that day, one of them (Carl) was the one who dragged him back over to the hotel from the parking lot after having the attack. He was amazed to see Steve there, especially after seeing him just four days ago passed out and turning blue.

On another thought, can Winnipeg come too soon. Nope. My bags are packed. At least in my head ;)

Thursday's Trail

As weird as it sounds, after hearing Steve had a heart attack, I wondered if there would be family around to go back to by the time we actually move there. I am sure he will pull through, he is very strong. Knowing him, he is looking at the bigger picture of how is God going to use this incident for his glory.

I sure hope the time comes soon to leave for Winnipeg. I know, (being a realist), that all the problems do not go away when you move to somewhere else, but that is not the reason I want to leave Regina. My reason is fairly simple, to be closer to family. Regina has been home for 22 years, I just think it is time to move on. I am not the most patient person. I don't like waiting. I am more spontaneous. Would I move tomorrow. Absolutely, if everything were in order. I like to be somewhat organized, if organized and spontaneous go together. I also love to be in control of the situation. Maybe that is my problem with my relationship with God at this time. Giving over control.

Monday's Meaning

Well the Riders won the game, and I was wrong, coffee is more expensive at Tim's (1.55), oh well life goes on. Hey Deb, (if you are still reading my blog), this video is for you. It reminds me of how you always used to sign off your emails (something about being kind to others, not knowing where they are at). This video speaks right to that. Makes me think of the things that are important in life, not a silly football game or the price of gas or even the &$%#&$* snow and cold weather, but how we are toward one another.

Thursday's Truth???

So as most people know (at least in Saskatchewan) the Riders won and made it to the Grey Cup. That is nice, but when you think about after the game is over on Sunday, win or lose, coffee at Tim's is still $1.40, gas prices will continue to go up, I still have to come to work, there will still be lots of poor people that will need to be fed and clothed, etc ....there is temporary happiness or sadness depending on the outcome of the game. Makes me think of the more meaningful things in life, rather than things that are so temporary. What are some of the things in this life that I want to do...more importantly what does God want of me. I often think about death and what people wish they could do before they die.... There was an article awhile back on the net about what people wanted to accomplish before they die, or if they knew they were going to die tomorrow what things would they do in the next 24 hours. Most of the answers are fairly meaningless ....here are some of the ones I remember.

1. Spend money and buy all those things I could never afford.
2. Take a trip.
3. Have sex with whoever is willing.
4. Go and tell everyone who has ever hurt me... where to go.
5. Spend more time at work (WTH that would be the last thing on my list)
6. Quit my job

There were some who actually gave thought to their answers...
1. Make up with all the people I have had something against.
2. If it is not too late, I would invite God in.
3. Leave all my belongings to people in need.
4. Tell all my friends and family how much they mean to me, and tell them about God.

In reality, all of these answers could apply to just about anyone, depending on their current state of belief in God and especially afterlife. I mean, honestly, if there were a God and no afterlife...well I think it's obvious which answers I would give to the above question. However, I believe there is an afterlife for all people, but unfortunately at this point in my life, most of my answers would point to the former rather than the latter. Not proud of that fact, it's is just where I am. I am glad that people gave honest answers. I would rather hear what people are really thinking, than to to hear "the God answer" to make themselves look and sound good.
Funny how we really don't want to be truthful at times, usually because we are afraid of offending people. Hmmm, wonder if Jesus ever told the truth and offended people hmmm, Nah... never happen, right?

Tuesday's Treatment

Ever think much about aging, getting old, dying. As I watch TV or read the paper lately I am usually fascinated on stories with medical edge technology. Some of the things that they (science/doctors) are coming up with to make us healthier or to help us live longer by creating some drug or machine that will cure cancer or diabetes. Don't get me wrong here, I think it would be great to have a cure for every disease, but let's be honest, they will not find a cure for death. We all will die (maybe some will be raptured). Is it more out of fear that we create these drugs and machines to help us live longer. I mean... I know my choice would be to not have to die until I am 100, as long as I am somewhat healthy. It makes me think a little of the miracles in the bible when Jesus brought back people to life. Yes they were really amazing, but I don't think Jesus did them for that one sole purpose. We certainly need to see something beyond the fact that they were given new life, after all they died of something else eventually. All miracles that Jesus performed, with the exception of the resurrection ...were only temporary "solutions" for what people thought they needed. In reality, to me, only the resurrection has permanence.

Friday's "Fuzzies"

1. DON'T SWEAT THE PETTY THINGS AND DON'T PET THE SWEATY THINGS.

2. CAN AN ATHEIST GET INSURANCE AGAINST ACTS OF GOD?

3. ATHEISM IS A NON-PROPHET ORGANIZATION.

4. IF MAN EVOLVED FROM MONKEYS AND APES, WHY DO WE STILL HAVE MONKEYS AND APES?

5. IF YOU SPIN AN ORIENTAL MAN IN A CIRCLE THREE TIMES DOES HE BECOME
DISORIENTED?

6. I WENT TO A BOOKSTORE AND ASKED THE SALESWOMAN, "WHERE'S THE SELF-HELP
SECTION?" SHE SAID IF SHE TOLD ME, IT WOULD DEFEAT THE PURPOSE.

7. WHAT IF THERE WERE NO HYPOTHETICAL QUESTIONS?

8. IF A DEAF PERSON SWEARS, DOES HIS MOTHER WASH HIS HANDS WITH SOAP?

9. IF SOMEONE WITH MULTIPLE PERSONALITIES THREATENS TO KILL HIMSELF, IS
IT CONSIDERED A HOSTAGE SITUATION?

10. IS THERE ANOTHER WORD FOR SYNONYM?

11. WHERE DO FOREST RANGERS GO TO "GET AWAY FROM IT ALL?"

12. WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU SEE AN ENDANGERED ANIMAL EATING AN ENDANGERED
PLANT?

13. IF A PARSLEY FARMER IS SUED, CAN THEY GARNISH HIS WAGES?

14. WOULD A FLY WITHOUT WINGS BE CALLED A WALK?

15 WHY DO THEY LOCK GAS STATION BATHROOMS? ARE THEY AFRAID SOMEONE WILL
CLEAN THEM?

16. IF A TURTLE DOESN'T HAVE A SHELL, IS HE HOMELESS OR NAKED?

17. CAN VEGETARIANS EAT ANIMAL CRACKERS?

18. IF THE POLICE ARREST A MIME, DO THEY TELL HIM HE HAS THE RIGHT TO
REMAIN SILENT?

19. WHY DO THEY PUT BRAILLE ON THE DRIVE-THROUGH BANK MACHINES?

20. HOW DO THEY GET DEER TO CROSS THE ROAD ONLY AT THOSE YELLOW ROAD SIGNS?

21. WHAT WAS THE BEST THING BEFORE SLICED BREAD?

22. ONE NICE THING ABOUT EGOTISTS: THEY DON'T TALK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE.

23. DOES THE LITTLE MERMAID WEAR AN ALGEBRA?

24. HOW IS IT POSSIBLE TO HAVE A CIVIL WAR?

25. IF ONE SYNCHRONIZED SWIMMER DROWNS, DO THE REST DROWN TOO?

26. IF YOU ATE BOTH PASTA AND ANTIPASTO, WOULD YOU STILL BE HUNGRY?

27. IF YOU TRY TO FAIL, AND SUCCEED, WHICH HAVE YOU DONE?

28. WHOSE CRUEL IDEA WAS IT FOR THE WORD "LISP" TO HAVE "S" IN IT?

29. WHY ARE HEMORRHOIDS CALLED "HEMORRHOIDS" INSTEAD OF "ASSTEROIDS"?

30. WHY IS IT CALLED TOURIST SEASON, IF WE CAN'T SHOOT AT THEM?

31. WHY IS THERE AN EXPIRATION DATE ON SOUR CREAM?

And... WHY DO KAMIKAZE PILOTS WEAR HELMETS?

Sunday's Sequel

To continue where I left off last time ...... I believe that as I was growing up I had no interest in school...it was just a way to meet girls and play sports....and today I was thinking that because I did not have any motivation during those school years to study to push myself to do more than get a barely passing grade...I think that is why I am at where I am at today (referring to job and life). I am not putting down all people who clean but as I look back it sure as hell is not what I would have hoped to be doing when I grew up. Self esteem issue here...hmmm maybe ...just more of the attitude coming out of what it going on in my head on a daily basis. Also, with reference to life. I did not push myself as a kid growing up, so I do not push myself now when I am all grown up (hmmm). I also realize it is not too late to change the way things are...Just like mind games can drag us down into senseless pity parties our minds can also lead us to do so much more than we could probably imagine. There was a book out a few decades ago called The Power of Positive Thinking"...and I do think that those positive thoughts that we capture can make all the difference in the world in our daily life. Just like the negative thoughts will do the same only take us in the opposite direction ......makes me wonder here (some will be reading this next line and thinking what an idiot - like I care - strictly opinion here) I wonder if people who suffer from depression are those who struggle a lot with negative thoughts that they are dealing with or not dealing with now, or a bunch of negative shit they went through when they were young, (my mini sermon on depression - just F'n tired of our "take a pill for whatever the F ails you" mentality). I, for one, am not the type to go and read a self-help book, I believe we can do anything if we set our minds to it, you don't need a book to tell you what you already know. So having said that, I am still back at square one, at least until I decide whether to act on any of those daily questions in my head. It's like the participaction commercial from years ago...Don't just think about it, do, it , do it. I need that motivation, I need that challenge, that sense of "I can do it, and I will prove it attitude. I will update as I decide whether or not to act out what I think would be for the better. Feel free to comment, tell me where to go, or give some motivational speech ;)

Thursday's Thrust

Back to the blog on motivation. Can I? Can I? Can I do anything??? (lose weight, be happy, be positive, be less negative, eat healthier, save money, quit smoking, etc etc etc) Damn right. There are things I think about daily and I constantly ask myself whether or not I can do this or that? Every time... okay probably 90% of the questions I come up with the answer is Yes I can. Soooooooooo the question is why do I choose not to do these things...most of which are good for me. Laziness, fear, lack of motivation, could be any one or a combination of any of those answers...I am guessing mostly lack of motivation. I honestly believe that we play so many mind games with ourselves that we are our worst enemy most of the time. Growing up...think back now..did you get positive or negative thoughts/encouragements from parents, teachers, siblings, friends, etc. Did they say hey dumb ass you won't amount to much, or were they saying, You can do and be anything you want in this world. My parents never said anything negative, at the same time I don't remember a lot of "positive" comments...but I knew they wanted what was best for me. To be continued, I still need to say so much more on this topic.

Wednesday's Whine Part II

Hard to believe there are so many things that tick me off.

People who suffer in pain.

People who have an answer for everything, but half of the answers are wrong. If you don't know the answer, say so, don't bullshit one.

People who work in the public and have no customer service skills at all. Don't roll your freaking eyes at me when I ask for a coffee. I didn't pick the damn job for you, so don't take it out on me!!!

Waiting in line. At the grocery store... at the bank... it's never ending...

Politicians - People who give meaning to the phrase true lies. I vote for the one who I think lies the least.

People who don't pick up after their dogs. Sometimes you just want to pick it up and throw it at them.

Drunk drivers - Why is it that after an accident involving one all you hear is all occupants died except the DA drunk one.

Our justice system. - What a joke.

Monday's Motivation

Motivation. In my head I have so much that I would like to do, as well as places I would like to see. I would love to volunteer, to help out somewhere, but I have not decided on what that might be. Finding my niche, do something useful, rather than the same old shit day after day. Meaning and purpose should be enough to motivate me but it hasn't yet. I would like to find another job, one that is not so taxing on my back. However I have thought that if we should move, I would probably end up doing the same type of work because that is what I know and what I do best. If I put enough effort into this computer class I am taking that might help to create another job...but I need motivation. Dance class is good and I am learning things....like it has confirmed to me I don't have rhythm and like the country song says "Alcohol - helping white people dance"...maybe I should take up drinking ;) However, even with dance class lessons if I don't put the time and effort into practicing, it won't make me a better dancer. Places I would like to see....Cuba, Jamaica (again), Mexico, lots of Europe, Australia, and the Maritimes. Would be nice to just pick a place to go every year, rather than look back and say I shoulda, coulda, woulda....instead of Damn....didn't...DOH. Anyone out there have some motivational speeches?

Saturday's Stuff

Up a little early today because someones car horn was going off on the street this morning. Grrrrr, not the best way to start a day at work, but a start nonetheless. In case you were wondering (because even I was) this will not be an everyday blog like the previous one. I sure don't want this blog to be negative all the time either because that won't do much for me either, even though there will be a lot of negative tones. On a positive note, hmmm define positive, next year November 2008, I will be turning 50 and celebrating that fact in Las Vegas with whoever decides to show up. I am sure there is lots to do there besides gamble, right? Take in a show or two, see the big hole in the ground Grand Canyon, do some shopping (after all it will be American thanksgiving). Sometimes we all need a little something to look forward to in order to get us through some of the mundane BS stuff in life. Hmmm I guess heaven is like that.

Thursday's Thorn

Having to pretend that I have it all together when really at times I feel like I'm falling apart.

Yesterday I mentioned this as one of the things that tick me off. I often wonder why we can't talk to people about those things that make us fall apart. Let's be honest, everyone is there when things are going great, they are even there when things seem to be at their worst...so why is it you can't tell anyone about the things inside you that are the cause for your falling apart. Yet, if I were to have an anonymous blog (not saying I do or don't - if I did it would not be anonymous - so don't ask, I'll just lie), where no one knew it was me journaling I would have no problem spilling my guts. For instance, if I were a secret alcoholic or drug user, I would never tell anyone for fear of what may happen afterwards. I am not saying this so that the spotlight is on me (after all I prefer behind the scenes) but I believe most have "thorn in the flesh" issues where they feel there is no help. God's grace is sufficient. Right? I don't plan on bringing a whole lot of God talk into my blog because that is not where I am. I suppose one of those "hidden issues within" is my relationship with God. If i am not living for God i cannot call myself a Christian...not something I really want to discuss with a whole lot of Christians at work. I would rather people know where I stand and have them make a decision based on that than for them to believe I have things together when they are falling apart. I sure as hell will not walk on eggshells just so as to not disturb someone elses pretentiousness either. My choice.

Wednesday's Whine Part I

Things that really tick me off: (In no particular order - just when they happen)
Some of these may tick you off because you may not agree. Add them to your list!

Kids yelling and screaming and crying in the store because they don't get the freaking chocolate bar they want. Here's an idea...maybe we could have designated shopping times for adults only!

Being on time, and then being made to wait.

Suicide bombers. Those SOB's should practice at home beforehand.

People who gossip. Remember for every finger you point at someone there are two pointing back at you. At least one for sure and it is pointing straight up in the air.

Having to pretend that I have it all together when really at times I feel like I'm falling apart. Then walking on eggshells so as to not disturb someone elses pretentiousness.

Divorced people who do nothing but bitch about their ex. Get over it. It takes two. It's over. (This can also apply to those who are married, who do nothing but complain about their spouse).

People who stay together in unhappy marriages. Life is too short. Work at it or ... Next!

Excuses people make for staying together in those marriages. The kids will suffer (ummm hello, they are now). What will my family think (who gives a $#!& - it is your life, not theirs).

Abusive marriages (physical or verbal). If you are in one get the *$^& out.

Saturday's Start

After thinking about whether or not I should blog again I have decided to start up again. I was thinking one of the reasons I stopped was because some people were (hmmm insert political correctness here) not on the same page as myself in a lot of the stuff I blog about. So, after much thought, I have decided I don't care whether people disagree with me or not. The reason I blog is either to share my opinion on what I am thinking/going through, or just to vent or to even perhaps bring some light to a subject matter. Everyone has an opinion on something. I just happen to have an opinion on a wide range of things that I know some prefer I just not share them. I have not gotten to the point where my opinion comes out in person as much as it does in the blog. So to put in nicely.......Hmmmm I guess there is no way to put it nicely... enjoy the blog or don't read it if it pisses you off. Trust me, it pisses me off too some of the stuff I write about because I think it should be done a different way. Does not make me wrong or right...just freaking opinionated. We should just agree to disagree. So for the most part, like the song says (if you played it) "I don't give a darn what other people think, what do you think about that?" There is no use wasting time arguing back and forth, life is too short for that.

Have a nice day, and yeah it feels good to be back.

Tuesday's Termination

Holidays came and went and it seems they went so fast. Got to see most of our families in Manitoba, had a pig roast, lots of visiting, some golfing in North Dakota and shopping also. With the exception of a couple of long weekends next month, holidays are over and after some thought over the last ten days, so are my blogging days. Was fun for awhile. Got to struggle with a lot of issues I have been wrestling with, had some good insight from most of the comments on here but overall, I think when I offend some people by my opinions then I need to rethink what and why I was doing what I was doing. A lot of things on here I blogged about were just that, my opinion. I don't expect people to always agree with me either, in fact it makes for great discussion when they don't. I don't mind a little criticism every now and then as long as it is done tactfully. However, I have gotten to a point where I do not enjoy the daily blogging (like I used to). Who knows. Maybe "I'll be back", but if I am I will start all over. I will be deleting this blog at the end of the month.

Thanks for coming.

Mike

Monday's Makeover

Even though holidays are still a few days away, I have decided (temporarily or perhaps permanently) to discontinue blogging. Maybe after holidays I will again take it up, but at this time I do not feel it is of any help, both to me or to those reading. I think I just need to think about what the purpose of my blog is (be it spiritual or ranting on idiot (cows/pets) subjects, or just personal thoughts). Thanks for the comments over the past 3 months.

Sunday's Slow Stride

Sorry I am so late again. Wow two Sundays in the last couple of weeks. Had a great visit with friends again over the weekend at their cabin. Ended with a water fight with two of the Mom's against two of the kids, and I was in the middle, telling both sides who was hiding where. Had a great time. Hope everyone had a great weekend.

Saturday's Senselessness

Why is there so much hype when an author decides to kill off a character. I am referring to Harry Pothead. People are whining and complaining because she is going to kill off the star of her books. Who cares. This is a fictional character. People almost believe Harry Potter exists, and to them it is like killing a member of the family (must be a pretty shallow family some people have). Get a grip people.

Friday's Fatigue

Well I took a long hard look (well maybe not too long) at myself the last couple of days, and I honestly feel that apathy has set in. I know you are thinking, "What you just noticed that now?" There is no joy at work, no passion for anything, just laze around like a freaking bump on a log. Not only in life but obviously spiritually as well. I mean if I am a Christian there should be passion, zeal, joy excitement about the fact that God is in my life. I am not always a firm believer in being run by my emotions, although there are times, when they do run me. This may be happening now for a good reason, or it just may be a sign of being tired of same old same. Time for change, maybe. Change can be good. Hmmmm, well that is what they say. Guess we will see. Stay tuned.

Thursday's Trials

This has been a really dry month spiritually for me. Kind of my 40 days in the desert. Hmmmm In the desert because I guess at this time this is where I need to be, and maybe still in some ways want to be until i can figure things out. Even lately it has been easier to blog about "non-spiritual stuff". Whereas a month ago I enjoyed (to a point) all of the questions I was raising, even though I was not able to find answers to all of them. I am sure I will continue to blog on both topics...but when it gets to the point of blogging only on the non-spiritual end of things I will stop blogging all together. I even thought at one point I was very close to climbing down the wall to the narrow road, only to climb back up and start climbing down the other side. Ups, and downs, slips and slides. Almost feel like I am paying the real life version of snakes and ladders...interesting name in terms of heaven and hell when you think of snakes and ladders.

Wednesday's Whopper

Maybe you have heard over the last week about Shambo the bull with the disease bovine tuberculosis ( I did not think I could spell it either). The Hindu's are complaining (hmmm what was that I said yesterday about complaining) that this bull is a sacred bull to be revered. Have you ever "HERD " of something so ridiculous. This is "UTTER" foolishness. There are people who are out there in the world who are petitioning for the bull's life to be spared and have set up a web site called, yeah you guessed it "MOO-TUBE" . Here is a quote from the article that says,
"Brother Jamie, one of the monks who lives on the 115-acre monastery and tends to Shambo every day, told the BBC the monastery "had an awful lot of letters and phone calls of support from people we don't know — people who are not particularly religious but who appreciate we are making a stand for what we believe." This is ludicrous. People have nothing better to do than to stand up for something that don't mean a thing. A bunch of MOOrons, okay so I stretched that one a bit. Not sure if they have put Shambo down or not. Let's hope so, after all there is only so much BULLONEY one can stand for one day.

Tuesday's Temper Tantrum

As you read, note the big container of salt next to this....you may need to take this with a grain or two or more. I am sure we are all familiar with the saying, "If at first you don't succeed ...stir stir again" or something like that. ;) So tell me...How do you think ministry should be "performed" in the church? Should it be done individually, should some help out and not others...should we all be involved?? Is it just the pastors who should be involved in "programs"? (after all they are paid for that ....right???) I hope you know I am saying this tongue in cheek, Hmmmm. Hard to tell when I am typing. Everyone (Pastors) have different job descriptions with in the church. Some preach, some teach, some administrate, some lead worship, some lead children youth etc.... When some event is going on, say dessert theatre...should they (Pastors)all be involved? Hmmm, I don't see that in my job description, guess it is not my responsibility. The way I sometimes see it, is if people in the congregation see the pastors doing stuff (volunteer stuff) , they will be involved too.... hmmm or will they??? Those of us who work in a church can complain just as well as those who don't....be you pastor or janitor. Maybe attitude is the problem....not just mine either, trust me I know I have one, we all do to some degree. Don't we? Trust me, we do! I guess only you can answer for yourself. Life should not be just bitch and then die. It seems it is just our nature to complain. Maybe we watch too much news on TV and figure there is not a lot of good going on in this world so why should I let there be any sunshine in me at work or home for that matter. There is a lot of good going on in the world and in the church, having said that there is a lot of &$%^ going on in the church and in the world also. Attitude is a big part. Let's face it, God never promised us a rose garden, not here on earth...and if He did there are thorns in it so watch it. A few months ago when I first started blogging, I mentioned about not complaining or gossiping for a day. Obviously one day can make a little difference (in a lifetime), kind of like one grain of salt on my baked potato. It might add flavor to the smallest possible bite, but after that the added flavor is gone. I am not just talking to you who read this blog and fall into this category , I am writing this to remind me it is a daily thing that needs to come to mind or we will just continue where we left off the other day. Just like the drug addict who goes one day without ( how would I know, hmmm) in order to make a difference in himself, one day won't do anything without a 2nd, 3rd etc right up until the end. Feel free to call me on it when I complain without reason (Oh never mind, I forgot about tomorrows blog on the sacred cow issue). After all this digressing, my opinion on ministry is that when there is something going on and it is not in your realm of work of ministry...you make it your realm and support what the other pastor is doing. It's not about US after all, it is about what God wants of us. We work in the church, and if we can't support each other in what we do (whether we agree with or like the other person or not) then we are fairly useless to the people outside the church because we are no different...it is ME, ME, ME. There needs to be give and take, not take and take, (that's just obvious) and not give and give either (that's just burnout). Well I think I have stirred the pot enough, but I did bring a big container of salt with me....oops I think it's empty now. Hmmm good thing we are salt of the earth right????....course I think in the Bible (Matthew 5), it talks about salt being usless when it has lost its saltiness....well, not quite useless, it is good enough to be thrown out to be trampled on by others.

Monday's Mishap

Back to the topic of regrets. I keep bringing this up obviously because I have not dealt with those regrets of mine, at least the ones that keep coming back up, like sour milk...you know the feeling I mean??? Some regrets are so small I am able to (at least for now) brush them off. Those bigger ones keep coming up faster than the gophers at the church and are the harder ones to suppress. Almost to the point where I can't keep up...thank goodness for my music that I keep playing all day long...it helps at times to push that sour milk back down before I begin throwing up. As you know, it has to come out sometime ... somehow. I have not quite dealt with them yet...hypothetical situations do not do the trick for me...I can not ask myself after doing something...what if, or what would or might be... There are some things I can do with those regrets where the people who I did or said something to are still alive (I can make a list like Earl onthe TV show), of course most of my regrets are with people who are no longer here. DAMN. If you are reading this, don't get to the point where I am now...if you need to tell someone you are sorry for something you did or said then DO IT. If you need to tell them how much you love them knowing you will regret not telling them when they are gone...DO IT. You will just have to take my word for it now. You know that feeling you get in your gut when you see the police lights flashing in the rear view mirror??? Well I get those on a daily basis. Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda don't cut it now, and sure the heck won't cut it later when something happens that you might regret for the rest of your life.

Sunday's Sleep-in

Was nice to sleep in today til 5:00. It has been awhile since I have slept that long. I am so sore today, I guess all the work from kids kamp is catching up to me. I have decided that after I get back from holidays that I am going to go back to church again. I think I will try Rosewood again, and put some effort in of my own, rather than just take. I can't remember the last time I went to church when I was on holidays. I am sure it was around Christmas time 1990 something. I wonder if most people are like me that way. So a quick question before signing off today, what does ministry look like to you or how should it look like in the church as far as pastors and those who attend when it comes to "programs" (I really hate that word). Should we all be involved? Should we all help out? I will get back to this sometime next week. Thanks for coming to my minute church.

Saturday's Sleepy

One more work day this week. I am so looking forward to Sunday and Monday off. It has been a longer than normal week this past week at work, to me a very successful kids kamp at church. Someday I will blog about church ministry as it relates to all areas but not today. Stay tuned, maybe before holidays come up.

Wow, holidays...guess I won't be blogging then. Where ever we are staying I don't think people have computers in their homes. Although there is a library in Morden, so I will have to try there. Hope you can all manage a few days without me boring you to death. Maybe that is what happened to everyone lately. I have bored y'all to tears and you don't come back anymore :) Oh well, maybe I will keep learning something from blogging here. Thought I did, but I think for the first time since 1993 I am wrong. Wow this getting wrong or being wrong it hard to take. Guess that happens as you get older, right Sheryl. :):):) Not sure if you are reading my blog but as you know I love to bug you. If I did not have you to bug who would I bug. Hmmmm food for thought, but I am not hungry enough to search for that answer. besides I don't think I would find one. Have a great weekend all.

Friday's Forum

Sad day at work today....well kinda sad. The new kid...Sara lee is leaving us to head to baking school (just kidding) in Czech Republic in a couple of weeks until the end of April with Athletes in Action. The movie slap shot will never be the same. Good thing she does not read my blog. Seems like just a year ago when we were fare welling the new kid who held the same job as Sara. What was her name again. Oh yeah How could I forget the issues I had with her. I wonder what ever happened to her? Will I miss Sara....meh... :) There goes my new tennis doubles patsy......oops I mean partner. Yes I will miss her. There was never a dull ...hmmm never a dull quiet moment with her around. In some ways I feel like a square peg in a round hole with the people I work with. Those I work with that are reading this might know what I mean. I am probably the person who talks the least... I kinda like it that way...sort of similar to my job...behind the scenes....let the others do the talking...and once in awhile stir the pot when it reaches the right temperature in conversation. Timing is everything. Good thing I don't blog about everything we discuss right co-workers...no one would ever believe me :):):) I guess the temperature of the conversation called for some good old fashioned pot-stirring right there. Have a great day all....TENNIS ANYONE. I could use a new partner.

P.S. So long Sara (Amanda), yeah you will be missed. No really. You brought a lot of positive energy into the church. Keep in touch kid.

Thursday's Tick

More and more lately I have felt like such a hypocrite in my faith. I say I believe in God, but my actions do not back that up. I think anyone can put up a good front, and people will believe that they are a follower of Christ, I know this, because I live this. I can do and say all the right things in front of others, but to God it don't mean $%#&. He knows every detail about us, and every thought we have. It comes back to the mask. It covers not just the face. When a hockey goalie puts on a mask he wears it so he won't get hurt by a puck shot to the head. In the same way, my mask protects me from a lot of hurt that would come from others if they knew what was behind the mask. I guess we all have something similar to Paul's thorn in the flesh. The difference between the goaltenders mask and mine, is that he can take his off after the game is over. Mine will stay on forever...or until God removes it.

Wednesday's Wants & Wishes

Favorites? We all have them, right? (Check out the new videos this week - One is called New favorite) Favorite kind of chips, or chocolate bar, pie, ice cream, food, fruit, brother, sister, parent?, friend, and the list can go on and on. Do I have favorites. Absolutely. Lays Salt 'n Vinegar chips, Milky Way triple Tornado ice cream, apples, lemon meringue pie. As for fave brothers and sisters...yeah I have had those too...but over time they change...one year it was Paul, then John and then Steve and then John etc....same with the sisters, and nieces and nephews and people who have worked for me. Even parents. Growing up Mom was my favorite, then when I hit about 20 it was Dad. Heck, I even have a favorite son, but I won't choose a favorite daughter. :):):)~ I even have favorite friends...and believe it or not...these change also....one time it was whatshername, then it changed to youknowwho and lately Ican'tbelieveshewasafavorite....bet these are not the names you were expecting to read. Some people say they don't have favorites...now don't get me wrong here...I am not saying they are lying...I am just saying I have favorites...and why am I saying that....because I can. Now I guess I kinda lied...I don't have a favorite everything.....one favorite that will never make my list of favorites is favorite green veggie. That's just wrong. Well it's time to leave for my "favorite" job ;)

Tuesday's Tired

Getting old kinda sucks. Even though in my head there are still lots of things I think I can do, my body talks back to me and says, "oh no, you can't, don't even try and attempt to .....". After I do it anyways, my body says "SEE, I told ya so". I drag my sore body home on a daily basis, where 20 years ago that was not the case. Oh well, it is not really something I can change anyway. Maybe if I were more fit, I would not feel so physically tired, or maybe if I did something else...another kind of job....I am working on it ;);)...kinda....just too tired to do a whole lot of work to change how things are. On the bright side....there is a bright side to getting old...I know you really want to know what it is....the bright side is you are alive. As sore as I may be at times, I would (at this time in my life) rather be alive and physically wiped, than dead.

Monday's Merciful

It is good that God is so patient with me. Time and time I mess up, but time and time and time again He is willing to forgive. His forgiveness to me is a great illustration of how we are to be toward one another. I am not the grudge holder type person. Usually within a few minutes of getting really ticked, I come to my senses, and think it really does not matter what that person said or did that ticked me off. I need to deal with it right then and there or it will eat away at me until I deal with it. God's forgiveness is just so incredible. I don't think I could forgive others without God's help a lot of times. I have noticed small changes in me from even a year ago, that things that people did or said to me I have been able to just brush off, where as before I would gets so ticked at them. Slowly and hopefully surely, this will continue. I am still not where I should be. I still have really bad days, but as far as letting things go, things are alright, hmmm but winter is coming.

Sunday's Stay

I know. I am very late in posting today. Did ya miss me that much? All 2 of you :):):) We were out at a friends cabin for the day and just got home. I enjoy those weekends where you can catch up with friends that you only see a couple of times a year, and the best thing is that even though you only see each other a couple of times a year, you can pick up right where things left off. Too bad we could only spend the day with them.

Saturday's Sweltering

Hot weather is awesome, especially when you have an air conditioner. Yesterday's weather made me think of how I perceived hell as a kid. Hot and no escaping it (we did not have air conditioning in our house growing up). Do I think that now hell is this extremely hot place where people are sent. Hmmm Hmmmm, nope.(maybe I am wrong here, but that's okay, it won't be the first time...come to think of it ...it won't be the last time either). I think that is more a metaphor of what it is like. We will thirst for water which is Christ, but there will be none to be found. No second chance after this life is all over. So how come, I am still not going out there and telling people about Christ (so many family members on both sides that are going to hell, and friends too)? Had this discussion not too long ago....if we, who know Christ, are not telling people about Him, are we in a sense sending them there. I know it is their choice, but if we don't tell them, they don't really have a choice. Do they????

Friday Finally

Winnipeg vacation coming soon. Only three weeks till we start holidays. It will be great to get away for ten days...visiting family at a get together Pig Roast at my brothers place. Will be good to see them. We will get to visit Marlene's side of the family too sometime that week. We hope to golf also in North Dakota for the weekend before heading home. Three weeks away still seems like a long time but the next couple of weeks at work will be fairly busy.

This week at work we got some new hmmm more humane gopher traps, which seem to be working much better than the old style where you catch his leg and club him with a stick. Oh the joys of being the exterminator.

Still eating my apples everyday (2 whole months now). Do I feel better for it? Nah, but I am liking apples more and more, and I still look forward to my oreo fudgeo sandwich in the evenings ;) Not sure though if I have cut down on sweets though.

Thursday's Turn

When we were kids we used to dream about what we would be when we grew up, football player, actor, doctor, lawyer etc. Now that we are no longer kids we still sometimes think about what we want to do when we grow up or maybe at this point (over 40) what do we want to do or where do we want to work, where maybe we won't be as miserable. I have those days myself. More so lately (the last couple of weeks) than in the last 6 months. I am referring to job here, not to spiritual life. A couple of months ago I was wavering on whether to move back to Winnipeg (leaving friends here and starting all over at a new job when I have become, hmmmm, comfortable where I am). I have wavered back to the other side to ..."I am ready to leave." Really does make a difference on the mood a person is in when they make a decision. Don't get me wrong. I am thankful to be working where I am and with the people that are there. I think maybe it is just time for a change. Is God telling me this??? I can't say that for sure, but I am open to what he wants of me. I think I need to know that it is God telling me that it is time to move on and not a mood I am in or the sore back telling me it is time.

Wednesday's Winging-it

Probably the one thing, hmm maybe the only thing I find with any importance these days is relationships I have. Relationships with God, family, friends and even acquaintances. Funny how sometimes when a relationship can sour, how your whole outlook on life can change, and quickly at that. Obviously the closer the relationship the more your outlook on things can change. It seems it does not take much at times for a friendship to go awry, a little argument, a little unforgiveness or sometimes it is just plain old distance that keeps a relationship from how it used to be. Sometimes you just drift apart, things change,I guess. How we handle these situations can either drag us down or force ourselves to pick ourselves up, dust off and move on. Sometimes it is not that easy. Almost like a death, there is a mourning process you go through, until you adjust to it finally saying *&^% it or realizing it did bring some joy and help to my life (when I needed it) so I need to be thankful for that. I have dealt with it both ways....not saying one way is right or wrong, it just really depends on what happened to make the relationship sour. Was it my fault, their fault, ......at that point does it really matter whose fault it was? At least we know that with God when there is a screw up it was me....every time.

Tuesday's Trip

The fruit of the spirit in Galatians 5:22-23 I feel I fail so miserably in more than half of these areas. Joy, peace, patience, goodness, faithfulness and self control are those fruits which have either never grown on my branches or have fallen off along the way and rotted on the ground. Like Casey at the bat, there is no joy in Mikeville (some joy perhaps, but too often life is a bitch). Peace I think comes with joy (I am sure that some will say that if you have one you have all, or like the ten commandments - you break one you break 'em all). Patience is getting much better. I find as I am getting older, a lot of "earthly" things don't matter, unfortunately that often extends to my spiritual thinking of late. Goodness and faithfulness are really not even on my radar right now. I think I could change my name to Judas and have more goodness and faithfulness than I feel I have at this time. Self control - hmmm lets leave that one behind the mask for now. On the bright side (no really there is one). I have been able to identify where I have fallen short as far as areas where I have room for "home improvement". On the downside (I knew there was one of those). If these fruit do not continue to produce on my branches then life as i know it looks pretty damn bleak. I have not given up all hope (trust me, if I had, I sure as heck would not be blogging on spiritual stuff right now). I know that only God can stir within me the change that is needed. God is always stirring things within me, sometimes he needs an even bigger spoon than mine. Maybe a good whack across the head will wake me up someday.

Monday's Money

Have you ever wanted to be rich? Or at least have enough money that you do not have to worry about working again, or worry about money again? Luke 12 - Jesus talks about storing up riches for ourselves here on earth. Jesus does not condemn the possession of money, but he warns us against putting all our faith in it to secure our future. We think it secures our future, and maybe as far as our earthly future, it probably does secure it somewhat. We worry so often about money and the lack of that we fail to trust God. Too often, we worry about what we have and how we can keep it and even get more, that we miss out on the things in this life that we should be concerned about (telling people about Christ, helping the poor etc). A rich Christian ... is that an oxymoron? No, what is important is what we do with what God has given us. I really need to remember that daily, that what is have, God has entrusted me with to use wisely (I believe that goes with not only the gifts I have but also the possessions I have as well).

Sunday's Sanctuary

Happy Canada Day. Must say I am looking forward to the long weekend here, because it will be busy at work for the next two weeks. Over these past couple of months of blogging I have appreciated all the comments that people respond to my blog with. I guess for me it has been sort of like church...getting together with people, just not in the church building. In the last week or so I have had more thoughts about going back to church, (I am sure it must be God's moving, because I would not choose to move that way on my own), so I will let you know. NO Deb, not yet, but thanks for asking ;)
In some ways this has been like a small group study, (even though I don't think I would like to lead a Bible study though) and I get to lead with all the questions I have, but I miss the actual people being right there and talking rather than running back and forth and waiting for responses on the computer. The "live" Bible study cannot be replaced by a computer screen blog. It is like lunch time at work sometimes, when there are 5-6 people there and the discussion gets going. Lunch time Bible study. Works for me.

Saturday's Statement

Friendships and relationships. Something I know I need on a daily basis. Someone to help and support me in times when I need it, and other times when friends are their to give you that kick in the right direction. I have had both which have been a real blessing. One more thing to thank God for. Sometimes we need to stop and think about the things God has done for us and given to us. Often times I am just to busy to take that time, but it is a great reminder to give thanks and with a grateful heart. All the blessings that we normally take for granted (friends, family, a job, freedom,) and the list can go on. Thanks God.

Friday's Forum

Sliver, toothpick, splinter, 2 X 4. At one time or another I have had any one of these in my eye/s. Boot, shoe and foot I have often tasted as well, at those times when I wish I could take back what I said, but once it crosses the lips the damage has been done. You feel like crawling into the tiny mice hole, but even he won't let you in. We need to be very careful what we say, and choose our words carefully. At times (most) I can be very pot stirrish and easily move to cutting. For the most part I stay off the cutting edge, but once in awhile I cross the line, and realize even as I am speaking that I went to far. James talks about that (come to think of it I blogged on this very topic a few weeks ago....guess I am always in need of reminders). Better to keep my mouth shut and thought a fool then to open my mouth and remove all doubt. As for the splinter and 2 x 4, I am still working on getting that 4 x8 down to a 2 x 4 then down to the more manageable splinter and then a speck.

Thursday's Ticker

Well Paris is out of jail. How exciting. Did you all watch her on Larry King Live last night? Shame on you ;) You know she was counting on all of us watching!!! It is a great ratings grab. Maybe now she will turn over a new leaf like she said she would. Then again, most people probably hope not. I think the reason most people are so caught up in all of this reality/celebrity idiocy is because it makes them look great by comparison. It is easier to critique someone elses life than to deal with our own. For instance, if I said today, that for the rest of the week on my blog I will start revealing the things behind my mask, viewership would go up. Could go as high as ten hits on the counter :)
We are a curious bunch by nature. We want to know stuff about the people we know and even those we don't know.

Wednesday's Wash

After painting last week in the youth stairwell I remember how much I hate to paint ceilings. Paint splattering all over (although it adds a nice new color to my hair). When it comes to getting it off and you have to scrub and scrub, especially on the hands around the fingernails. Finally after a few days of scrubbing it is gone. I know most other areas are cleaned up when the paint around the fingernails is all gone. So I am clean on the outside but the inside is as disgusting as ever. It seems I always give enough time to scrubbing and cleaning when there is all the dirt that people can see on the outside of me, but never pay attention to what is going on inside, or even attempt to give God the free reign to clean up in here. I can never mask the outside, short of throwing a sheet over my head but I always hide the things within. I am unwilling, it seems, to give God reign over all areas of my life, for whatever reason and for that I pay the price on the inside.

Tuesday's Trap

Regrets! Had any? I've had a few? (Hmmm just started remembering the words to Elvis' My Way. Sorry digressing again). How do you deal with them? I have tried to shove them way at the back of my head, but when it gets full they start coming to the front and I start thinking about them again. Some of them just eat away at me until I am able to stuff them further back. It is amazing how the mind can do stuff like that. Like when someone we know, who dies, how quickly we go from an emotional wreck to a point where we go on like nothing happened. Then is starts all over again. You reminisce about that person, and start thinking about all the things you maybe did or said or maybe didn't do or didn't say and regrets start mounting. I realize there is nothing I can do at this point, I can't change history but I can change the present and the future (at least as far as not having as many regrets), by doing and saying the things I should. I came upon this website Good old google. It talks about overcoming serious regrets. Hmmmm just remembering what I said last Thursday in my post about reading other stuff other than the Bible ;) Guess what....there is truth outside the Bible :):):)
As for regrets at this time, yeah, I have shoved them to the back to be dealt with at another time. I'll get to them....tomorrow ;)

Monday's Motivation

Motivation! What motivates you to do something? What helps you reach your goal? I have been lacking motivation for a couple of weeks to do anything. Maybe some of the things that help motivate you will give me the kickstart I need. On weekends I just get into lazy mode and do nothing. Any help would be appreciated.

Sunday's Sweetness

Human forgiveness is a pretty awesome thing. It can bring healing where there was hurt. It can mend a lifetime of bitterness. It also (I believe), can do miraculous healing within the body. I think that the bitterness that is harbored when someone does you wrong can cause so much inner sickness and turmoil to a person (sorry, no scripture verse to back this up), but forgiveness can bring about healing. God's forgiveness (when we ask for it), covers all the guilt that comes to us when we sin. Unfortunately it does not cover the consequences that so often comes with it. However, He is still with us in those times. Was thinking today, if there are people who I have not forgiven for something they have done to me. If I have not forgiven them, then I can kiss off any forgiveness I ask God for. I need to give forgiveness, even though I may have been hurt by something someone did or said which may have caused me to harbor any kind of bitterness I may still have toward them. So today, if you are looking for something to think about, think on this

P.S. Any answers to questions on yesterday's blog.

Saturday's Scandal

No rants today... no raves either... just a couple of questions.

1. What is your opinion on the exclusivity of Christianity? People are asking, "Who is to say that Islam or Mormonism or Judaism or Buddhism are not the right religions or the right "God" to follow. Other than faith, believing what the Bible says, is there any other reason to believe that Christianity is the only way. Love to hear your thoughts and opinions on this topic? It is obviously one that as Christians we should have an answer for!

2. Another question to wrestle with is how kids are taught in Sunday School and at home. They are young and very impressionable and will take, for the most part, whatever their teacher or parents say about God/religion. So you are believing only what you have been told. If it was good enough for us, it is good enough for you. For the most part, no questions asked. Almost like choice is not a part of the package. (I know I did not question things then, which is probably why I am questioning things now) Which brings about the next part of this question...that when the kids get older (say in their 20's and 30's) they really don't know why they believe what they believe because they never questioned it or maybe were told not to. Don't get me wrong here. Obviously some parents and teachers have let their kids think and question through some issues, but for the most part I think that is not the norm.

Friday's Freak-out

Well I had thought I had seen it all last month after talking about things that people buy for their pets. Well life just got a little stupider in this world we live in. What could be worse than your dog wearing "Indian feathers" or a Top hat for your cat. How about a rest home? That's right a ridiculous rest home for the pet as they grow too old for you to care at home. You can pay some 450.00 British pounds a month or the equivalent of $955.00 CDN to have your dog in this place. Included in this is that the old dogs will be accompanied for part of their day by a group of puppies. The younger dogs will serve to cheer up and stimulate the veterans and could even, serve to remind dogs that have grown senile and forgetful of how to behave properly. I can't believe this. How stupid are people. Never mind. Wait there is more ... when a dog is deemed by the vets to be at death’s door, it will be moved to a special suite large enough for its owner to stay with it during the final hours. A canine chapel of rest is conveniently situated behind the main building. It gets worse as you read on in the article..., "F (that's not my abbreviated F) by Design, a grooming parlour in Naka Meguro, Tokyo, offers dog haircuts that include a massage as standard. Clay packs, “minus ion” steam baths and Chinese herb hot tubs are offered as optional extras Wake up people. What is next? Oh I know, and you are probably wishing you had thought of it first. Driving lessons for dogs. No really. It comes with a feed bag just under his chin, a wireless headset for him to answer calls from his freaking puppies waiting to be picked up and one more thing that they cannot live without, a fire hydrant right where the stick shift would be so he does not have to make numerous stops. It is a pet, not a human being, and there is a distinction. Unless you believe that your pet is going to heaven...but only if he has said the ....OK never mind. Before you start thinking I am an animal hater, I am not. I just get pissed off when people put the worth of animals above humans. In the end it is still just an animal . Animals are here for a purpose, some are yummy, others are pets, some would say both.

Thursday's Trying Times

Yesterday I left off venting about all the Christian literature out there. Just think how much money could be usefully used to spread the gospel around the world if we didn't spend so much money on this stuff. Yeah I know, there is money wasted on a lot of other things out there, but we can all do our own part. Okay, I have probably ticked you off or offended you enough I need to move on to rant #2 and possibly offend some more ;). Vent #2, is somewhat connected.

Remember the days when we used to have Bible studies and actually studied the Bible. Nowadays we pick some book by some author (self-help, or pardon the expression get rich quick prayer of Jabez book). Maybe we have strayed so far from the truth that we really don't have a clue what the truth is. We are so engrossed in what Dr. Phil or Oprah have to say on a certain subject that we come so close as to worship these people. They are certainly more entertaining (and they should be) than the Pastor on Sunday (yeah I know how would I know) I mean after all some people watch them (Phil and Opie) 5 days a week and only have to listen to the pastor once. You can tell I don't give a rip what either of them has to say regardless of the subject. If people had common sense they would come up with the same answers as they do.

Anyone interested in a Bible study, let me know (really, I am serious). I love conversation that makes me think. I used to hate to have to think, but now it gives me something to do. My head is no longer void (although maybe after reading my blogs this week you are thinking that hmmm maybe it is!) :)

Wednesday's Worthless Writings

As you can see by today's title you may not want to read today's and tomorrow's blog if you are easily offended. I am sure when I ask questions like these or blog what even I consider negative stuff, I should probably stop and think for a month or two. However if you know me well enough my attention span is short, and I would forget by the time ....now what was I saying????

Every time I ask a question, I get another question. I have to come to understand I will never get all the answers to my questions here on earth, but I will always come up with more questions.

Today's question....Why is it we have so much Christian literature? Do we really need it all? Are there not enough teachings in the Bible to tell us how to live? Is it not the be all and end all for self help books? Why do we need so much more literature on something the Bible already answers? My guess, is we read these books because we identify more with the author and what they are going through, and we can say yeah, that is what I am going through? Maybe the Bible is old and outdated (note sarcasm) or maybe it is because these books are written now, not 2000 years ago??? hmmm Maybe??? hmmm Maybe these books deal with issues of "The mask".... some do...are they helpful??? I don't know, I don't want to go into some store and look let alone ask for a book that deal with .......(fill in the mask) ;)

We never really get the answers we want, but just knowing that someone else is going through what I am going through is helpful. Why do we not take our "problems" straight to God, rather than someone else? Do we want to wallow in our self pity (sometimes), never getting the answer that probably only God has for us? To conclude briefly here, I do not want to condemn all these books, some of which can be quite useful, (hey if it helps and scripture backs it up, then more power to us), but don't use it as the Gospel to give you the answers to everyday life. To be continued tomorrow because I still have a question that relates to what I said today.

Was I sarcastic today, hmmmm maybe! hmmmmm Maybe not!!! ;)

Tuesday's Try

Yesterday I talked a bit about challenges and goals in life and how I need to be challenged by others as well as myself. I know if I needed to lose weight, I could do it no problem, but I need a reason to do that. If I needed to eat healthier I could do that as long as it did not include the ingesting of veggies, that is just wrong. Ain't gonna happen ;) However, if I was told by a doctor that if I continued eating the way I am I would be dead in ten years, I think I might change my eating habits. There is a goal and challenge before me - eat healthier - live longer. There has to be a goal at the end of the challenge, I mean why do it otherwise? Work is a challenge some days, but the goal is the pay cheque. Eating healthier is an extreme challenge to me, but the goal is living longer (maybe - ahh the skeptic in me). I am currently working on a list of "resolutions" of challenges/goals for myself that will involve physical and spiritual aspects. I find if I don't set a goal before me, it won't happen. I need the "pot of gold' at the end of the rainbow. I need to be able to say "I did it", and then open the prize. There is a great deal of satisfaction in accomplishing what I set out to do. Now, having said all that, when it comes to completing spiritual goals, I know it is not necessarily something I did, but I still had to make that commitment to do what God asks of me and that is much harder (to me) than doing something for myself that in the end don't mean a thing. To me, the spiritual challenges and goals...the end result is heaven, if there were no heaven or something to strive for, I would not see the purpose of doing anything remotely spiritual if I knew the end result were just rotting in the ground. I mean, why would I? Right? But I do believe there is a heaven, and that Christ died and rose so that someday I will be there with Him. For me to get there requires me to believe in Him ... it also involves a commitment to Him, to doing what He asks, not the "easy believe ism" (I said the prayer so I am there) that some people think will get them to heaven.

Monday's Map

Do you ever stop and wonder how church as we know it will change over the next say 20 years. It certainly seems that most churches are experiencing a sharp decline in attendance overall. Is it that people just don't find it relevant for them, is it because of the way Christianity is portrayed in the media, is it because there is so much other stuff we could be doing, or maybe we feel we just don't have to go (at this time I am in this group). Certainly for me, I can get enough sermons or preaching on TV or online to keep me fed for years and years. The downfall I see of not going to church is lack of fellowship (if I had tons of friends, I would probably not miss out on that) and another downfall is whatever gifts I possess would not be used (at least not in the fellowship of the church). I would love to ask people who don't go to church why they don't go. Obviously if you are not a Christian then why would you go, but for those who profess to be Christians, then why are they not going. For me, at this time there are many reasons I don't go. Honestly I find it boring, way too long, I don't care for the music and on and on. Now this is all based on my present spiritual situation. There was a time, albeit a brief one, when I can remember going to church and even looking forward to it. That was probably over 15 years ago. Not exactly sure what happened that put out that fire or desire but it just extinguished. I believe that all of the things that we go through in life (good and bad - especially bad) can taint our view of why we do what we do. I am sure that when people close to me died, I felt really ripped at God, (looking back now - especially at the time of my Dad's, Mom's and sister's death). Maybe by the time John passed away I was either desensitized or a little more grown up in my faith (hmmmm), probably the former, because I feel I still have lots of growing up to do in the latter. Do I blame God for that? I probably did, but then figured that if God loved me so much it is not His will that we have these really negative thoughts toward Him. So as far as growing in my faith, No I can honestly say I am not there. Searching? Yeah. But that is only part of what I need to do. Doing is really the hardest part. Like I have said in previous posts or comments I can do a lot of things when I set my mind to it, (I need the challenge of others and from myself - what motivates me), but there is always something else that is more appealing than that actual goal. Kind of like it says in Galatians 5:7-10 At one point I was running a good race, stumbling here and there but getting right back up so as to finish it. Now, I have taken the fork in the road, and this road is broad and we know what happens to those who enter it. It is not an easy road to get off once you are on it either!

Sunday's Soap-box

Looking at all the comments over the last few days (please note sarcasm here) I was wondering if I offended anyone by some of the last few posts, or maybe I have just bored you to death, or maybe you are all very busy this week. Anyway I am getting up on my soap box again this morning.

Even though I work in a very big church (building size anyway) I can't help but wonder if this is what the church should be like. Do we need these mega size churches? Do we really need to spend millions and millions of dollars on brand new churches? Ones that can be rented out like your neighbourhood community centre? Do they really need to rent out their facilities to (for lack of a better term) "pagan groups" like dance groups, weight watchers, yoga or aerobics, socials, basketball teams and the list can go on. I guess I do not fall into the category that if we rent it to them they will also come to church there. I most likely fall into the category that says, this is not what was meant as missions outreach. I don't see a lot of good in having these different groups of people, bringing in their own "issues and ideals" into the church. To me this smells more of turning God's house into a den of robbers rather than a house of prayer. I think many churches today believe that if you build it they will come. A nice big church with a gym to keep our little kids out of trouble. That's bull. I don't remember reading that anywhere in the book of Acts or anywhere else in the Bible. Can people who have used the church for such functions end up coming to the church, or much more importantly, coming to know Christ? Absolutely. All I am saying is this is not the reason churches exist. People are coming to know Christ because the Spirit of God is working in their hearts, and someone else is obeying God's leading to share the Gospel with them.

I am getting off my soapbox, at least for the moment. I don't say these things to tick you off, I just want to let you know what sometimes ticks me off. We may not agree, and I can live with that, but sometimes the pot needs to be stirred. Having said that, sometimes it doesn't ;) .

Saturday's Spiel

The vine and the branches John 15:1-8. A great illustration given by Jesus of how we are connected to God. Jesus is the vine, we are the branches, and God is the gardener, who prunes us so that we can bear more fruit. Those branches that do not produce any fruit are good for nothing and are not worthy of a having a place in the vine...these branches are thrown into the fire. The branches that do bear fruit are the ones that are abiding in the vine. Apart from the vine the branch can do nothing (vs. 5) likewise, apart from Christ, we can do nothing. In Christ we have our all, and can do all. I can only guess when it says in vs. 5 that we can do nothing, that it does not have the significance as far as God is concerned. What we do without God is nothing.

Friday's Freshness!

Hmmm freshness, new, or just different. No blog today, I am lazy and a little tired. What's on your mind? You tell me what you wanna talk about. Maybe Friday's could be like Dear Abby or Miss lonely hearts :). You ask Dear Arnold and I will get back to you.

Thursday's Torment

We know what the Bible says about divorce (see Matt.19, Mark 10 and I Corinth. 7). What are some of your thoughts on this? We can probably argue that abuse (both physical and verbal) would be grounds for divorce. How about unhappiness? I am sure some/most of you have seen marriages where you look at a couple who have either been married a short time or some who have been married 40 and 50 years and ask yourself, why the heck are these people married, (there are happier people in prison - maybe cause they are apart from their spouse j/k). Is unhappiness and the unwillingness to work at a marriage grounds for divorce? Let me put it another way. Would you stay in a marriage where you were extremely miserable and you and your partner were unwilling to try and work it out? Is your decision based on the Bible, or at that point do you even care, you just want out! So many factors may help you make the decision (there are kids involved, what will family/friends think, there will be financial hardship, I will lose the house, I will have to get a job, who will get the kids and I am sure there are more). I know most of us probably believe that God can see us through any and all situations, including a miserable marriage. Does he want us to be miserable? I sure hope not. Maybe you have already had discussions similar to this with these questions, as I have had yesterday and many other times with friends. Feel free to comment anonymously if you are uncomfortable sharing your views. I guess in a sense my question to you may involve an answer that does not necessarily line up with scripture. There are lots of other topics we could cover that people deal with on a daily basis (pain and suffering, abortion, forsaking the poor, same sex marriage, etc). Maybe you have one you would like to discuss, this just happens to be one that came up today in conversation. Also, how do we (the church), minister to these people who make the decision to leave?
i would say a penny for your thoughts, but i know they are not that cheap.

Wednesday's Wrongdoings

Thought we could use some midweek humour. These are actual mistakes from church bulletins.

Don't let worry kill you - let the church help.

This afternoon there will be a meeting in the South and North ends of the church. Children will be baptized at both ends.

At the evening service tonight, the sermon topic will be "What is Hell?" Come early and listen to our choir practice.

Weight Watchers will meet at 7:00 pm at the First Presbyterian Church. Please use the large double door at the side entrance.

Low Self-Esteem Support Group will meet Thursday at 7 to 8:30 p.m. Please use the back door.

Next Sunday a special collection will be taken to defray the cost of the new carpet. All those wishing to do something on the new carpet will come forward and do so.

Ladies, don’t forget the rummage sale. It’s a chance to get rid of those things not worth keeping around the house. Don’t forget your husbands.

Miss Charlene Mason sang, “I will not pass this way again,” giving obvious pleasure to the congregation.

Barbara remains in the hospital and needs blood donors for more transfusions. She is also having trouble sleeping and requests tapes of Pastor Jack’s sermons.

Enjoy your day today.

Tuesday's Thrust

If you don't feel like being challenged today, you may not want to read the blog. I just finished reading the book "Revolution in World Missions", and I have been so challenged by many of the things the author is saying. In one of the chapters the author, K.P. Yohannan talks about purpose and how all of us are called for a purpose. He recounts a story of a conversation with an 8 year old boy where he asked him several questions.

"What are you doing", I asked the lad.
"I go to school".
"Why do you go to school?"
"To study."
"Why do you study?"
"To get smart." said the boy.
"Why do you want to get smart?"
"So I can get a good job."
"Why do you want to get a good job?"
" So I can make lots of money."
"Why do you want to make lots of money?"
"So I can buy food."
"Why do you want to eat?"
"To live." said the boy.
"Why do you want to live?"
At that point, the little boy thought for a minute, scratched his head, looked me in the face and said, "Sir, why do I live?" He paused for a moment in mid-thought, then gave his own sad answer, "To die!"

The question is the same for all of us: Why do we live? What is the basic purpose of your living in this world, as you claim to be a disciple of Christ? Is it to accumulate wealth, fame or fortune, etc?

No, the purpose of the believer is to obey Jesus when he said in the great commission, "Go into the world, and preach the Gospel."

If all of your concern is about your life, your job, your clothes, your children's clothes, healthy bodies, a good education, a good job and marriage, then your concerns are no different from a heathen's in Bhutan, Myanmar or India.

He then says how Jesus' goal here on earth was to do the will of the Father.

I definitely have a lot of re-examining to do in my life. This book has challenged me through-out.
If anyone would like a copy of this book let me know.

Monday's Messages

Random thoughts. Thoughts that have been popping up in my head this morning. My head is kind of like popcorn some times, the kernels (ideas) just start popping and I start thinking.

1. New job, is it time? My back is so sore this weekend, but do i make a decision based on that (does not help either with having to go in this morning for a couple of hours). My back is sore most of the time from work, but who is to say it will be any better anywhere else. 2. The possibility of moving to Winnipeg before I am 50. Sure anything is possible, but I find that the desire to go has dwindled lately, could be fear of starting all over again (after working for at a job for so long you do get comfortable), could be the making of new friends (after all it is easier to leave when you don't have any or many to stay for). Would it be good to go back to live around family (I think so, but am I leaning that way because I don't have as much family left?). Not much else going on this morning for ideas, but it's early. maybe I will continue another time. So, go, stay, work, Winnipeg? What do you think?

Sunday's Stupidity

Totally off my usual topics, well at least of late. Just wanted to rant about the idiocy that some call "Sustenance for Life". First it was OJ then it was Michael Jackson, then Anna Nicole Smith and now it is Paris Hilton.... the difference between them all, well the first two were found not guilty for something they did, and Anna well who can forgot that when she died all people cared about was who the freaking father was. At last word, OJ was still looking for his wife's killer on some golf course in Florida, and Michael Jackson was looking to open up a daycare in Beijing. As for Anna Nicole, rumour has it she may not have died but is in fact living in Graceland with Elvis in his basement. And you thought he had left the building. Now we have to be inundated with news that poor Paris proceeds to prison. We have to hear about her hair being unkempt ( I couldn't tell), no make up (Well a slight improvement), and she will not be allowed to wear her designer clothes (maybe she looks good in stripes). Poor Poor Paris. Your in prison. Why is it we give so much air time to air heads.... (I guess because the media knows those watching are also airheads). People lap it up like a dog at the fountain who hasn't drank in a day. At least the dog knows when he has had enough to drink. I remember when we were in Jamaica in January and heard about Anna-Nicole Smith dying. One lady on her lounger, was telling us how she spent an hour on the phone that morning with her mom talking about the whole thing. MORONS. We have nothing better to do than to watch the National Enquirer come to life on CNN, I don't get CNN but I know enough of them to know how they love to sensationalize the news. Do I care that she is in prison. Nope. Isn't that where you go when you break the law....I guess it depends which law you break at least in California. if it were murder, she would be back home, lounging around the house in her designer dress, getting a manicure and wondering what she can do next to keep her name in the entertainment news and on the lips of the stupid people that watch it. Speaking of which, I better go get updated so I can keep all of my readers informed. Oops the phone is ringing, hang on. WOW it is CNN and they want me to come and write the news for them. Now what was that I was saying just the other day about wanting another job!!! What's that? Awww bummer, must be U.S. citizen, and dumber than a sack of hammers....hmmmmmm hmmmmmmm (I heard that). Guess you are all stuck with me ..... for now!

Trivial Trivia

1 point if you can tell me where I am located A2, 5 points for SR ;) hehehe

Saturday's Support

I sure hope to catch up on some lost sleep hours this weekend. Most mornings been up before 3:00, and amazingly it is still dark outside. ;) Feel really draggy this morning. Work till noon, then back to work in the evening for a few hours after 9:00. Anyone know of any jobs available? Hmmm, hmmmmm, hmmmmmm. Then I think of your job SR, no way. You can keep it and the fact that you love your career is extra bonus. Your job Amanda/Manda/Mandy (hehehe), no. I could not even think of homeschooling 1 kids let alone 3. My one would have to be the teacher.
And I certainly would not want to do my wife's job. Complaining customers (except me - cause I am not allowed to go through her lane). I even refuse to go through the self serve tills a the east store. I am sure there are some jobs that I would like to do out there somewhere, maybe like you "kids", when I grow up I will know what I want to be. WHATEVER ;)~
So why am I whining about all this....because my back hurts and because I can! Also I want to let you know that you all do a great job in the work you have chosen. I either don't want to or can't do the things that you are doing but I can support and encourage you all or y'all in what you are doing. Do you get lots of encouragement in your job? Those days you don't get any, I sure pray and hope that God whispers to you how important you are to what you are doing but more importantly to HIM. Do our jobs really matter.....hmmmm to a degree, yes, (we can discuss this another time). What we do with them can make a difference, hopefully to the benefit of others. Think of those people who, or is it whom, I think it's whom, (I know I'm digressing shhhhh) you come into contact with for only a few minutes. That time you spent with them (believe it or not) could make all the difference in the world to them. Make the most (as I am sure you do) of what you do and what you say. We won't see the results until eternity. When we don't make the most of those times and if people see us in that short period of time in a bad light, we may also see the results of that in eternity also. Have a great weekend y'all.

Friday's foresight

Yesterday we were talking about the tongue, and when it is okay to tell someone something about somebody else, for their protection. In the next few verses in James after the taming of the tongue it talks about wisdom and understanding and that the "...wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure, then peace loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy, and good fruit, impartial and sincere." Then it concluses that "peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness." Thank God for grace, because after looking at the list, I stopped after pure. I think that even in the wisdom that God has given us, we will know in our spirit when what we are saying is for someones elses protection or merely gossip.

Thursday's Talk

The tongue. How hard it is to control and as it says a verse earlier in James "No man can tame the tongue". One of the hardest, there are many hard things for me to do and many that are hard for me not to do, but taming my tongue is right up there at number 1 or two. Controlling what I think is right next to it. As I read these verses I am thinking, crap, this is a big struggle. Sometimes it can come out in the form of gossip, other times it is just downright rude, and I am not even referring to my stirring the pot...although that can be part of it.... if I have ever stirred your pot and you have been hurt. If this has ever been the case, I need to know ,& you need to confront me on it or how will I know when I go too far. We have talked about accountability, well it would certainly include this.

The tongue: That verse: ...praise God and then the next minute say %#$@ you. Matthew 5:22 says anyone who calls his brother a fool is in danger of the fires of hell. I remember in Africa how I was with a group of other AYC "kids", and we were talking with the missionary, and one of them said to the missionary, oh you fool. One of the Africans ran for his Bible and brought it to his attention of what it said in Matthew. The missionary talked to the person at length that what the person had called him was not meant with the intent in which it was spoken. Makes me want to be more careful in what I say, and take my time before I say it. I remember being told that a diplomat thinks twice before saying nothing. Hmmm digressing??? maybe...All this to say. I need to watch what I say, and what I think. All these things to remember ... but on the bright side, friends to keep me accountable. That's your job friends.