Thursday's Trail

As weird as it sounds, after hearing Steve had a heart attack, I wondered if there would be family around to go back to by the time we actually move there. I am sure he will pull through, he is very strong. Knowing him, he is looking at the bigger picture of how is God going to use this incident for his glory.

I sure hope the time comes soon to leave for Winnipeg. I know, (being a realist), that all the problems do not go away when you move to somewhere else, but that is not the reason I want to leave Regina. My reason is fairly simple, to be closer to family. Regina has been home for 22 years, I just think it is time to move on. I am not the most patient person. I don't like waiting. I am more spontaneous. Would I move tomorrow. Absolutely, if everything were in order. I like to be somewhat organized, if organized and spontaneous go together. I also love to be in control of the situation. Maybe that is my problem with my relationship with God at this time. Giving over control.

Monday's Meaning

Well the Riders won the game, and I was wrong, coffee is more expensive at Tim's (1.55), oh well life goes on. Hey Deb, (if you are still reading my blog), this video is for you. It reminds me of how you always used to sign off your emails (something about being kind to others, not knowing where they are at). This video speaks right to that. Makes me think of the things that are important in life, not a silly football game or the price of gas or even the &$%#&$* snow and cold weather, but how we are toward one another.

Thursday's Truth???

So as most people know (at least in Saskatchewan) the Riders won and made it to the Grey Cup. That is nice, but when you think about after the game is over on Sunday, win or lose, coffee at Tim's is still $1.40, gas prices will continue to go up, I still have to come to work, there will still be lots of poor people that will need to be fed and clothed, etc ....there is temporary happiness or sadness depending on the outcome of the game. Makes me think of the more meaningful things in life, rather than things that are so temporary. What are some of the things in this life that I want to do...more importantly what does God want of me. I often think about death and what people wish they could do before they die.... There was an article awhile back on the net about what people wanted to accomplish before they die, or if they knew they were going to die tomorrow what things would they do in the next 24 hours. Most of the answers are fairly meaningless ....here are some of the ones I remember.

1. Spend money and buy all those things I could never afford.
2. Take a trip.
3. Have sex with whoever is willing.
4. Go and tell everyone who has ever hurt me... where to go.
5. Spend more time at work (WTH that would be the last thing on my list)
6. Quit my job

There were some who actually gave thought to their answers...
1. Make up with all the people I have had something against.
2. If it is not too late, I would invite God in.
3. Leave all my belongings to people in need.
4. Tell all my friends and family how much they mean to me, and tell them about God.

In reality, all of these answers could apply to just about anyone, depending on their current state of belief in God and especially afterlife. I mean, honestly, if there were a God and no afterlife...well I think it's obvious which answers I would give to the above question. However, I believe there is an afterlife for all people, but unfortunately at this point in my life, most of my answers would point to the former rather than the latter. Not proud of that fact, it's is just where I am. I am glad that people gave honest answers. I would rather hear what people are really thinking, than to to hear "the God answer" to make themselves look and sound good.
Funny how we really don't want to be truthful at times, usually because we are afraid of offending people. Hmmm, wonder if Jesus ever told the truth and offended people hmmm, Nah... never happen, right?

Tuesday's Treatment

Ever think much about aging, getting old, dying. As I watch TV or read the paper lately I am usually fascinated on stories with medical edge technology. Some of the things that they (science/doctors) are coming up with to make us healthier or to help us live longer by creating some drug or machine that will cure cancer or diabetes. Don't get me wrong here, I think it would be great to have a cure for every disease, but let's be honest, they will not find a cure for death. We all will die (maybe some will be raptured). Is it more out of fear that we create these drugs and machines to help us live longer. I mean... I know my choice would be to not have to die until I am 100, as long as I am somewhat healthy. It makes me think a little of the miracles in the bible when Jesus brought back people to life. Yes they were really amazing, but I don't think Jesus did them for that one sole purpose. We certainly need to see something beyond the fact that they were given new life, after all they died of something else eventually. All miracles that Jesus performed, with the exception of the resurrection ...were only temporary "solutions" for what people thought they needed. In reality, to me, only the resurrection has permanence.

Friday's "Fuzzies"

1. DON'T SWEAT THE PETTY THINGS AND DON'T PET THE SWEATY THINGS.

2. CAN AN ATHEIST GET INSURANCE AGAINST ACTS OF GOD?

3. ATHEISM IS A NON-PROPHET ORGANIZATION.

4. IF MAN EVOLVED FROM MONKEYS AND APES, WHY DO WE STILL HAVE MONKEYS AND APES?

5. IF YOU SPIN AN ORIENTAL MAN IN A CIRCLE THREE TIMES DOES HE BECOME
DISORIENTED?

6. I WENT TO A BOOKSTORE AND ASKED THE SALESWOMAN, "WHERE'S THE SELF-HELP
SECTION?" SHE SAID IF SHE TOLD ME, IT WOULD DEFEAT THE PURPOSE.

7. WHAT IF THERE WERE NO HYPOTHETICAL QUESTIONS?

8. IF A DEAF PERSON SWEARS, DOES HIS MOTHER WASH HIS HANDS WITH SOAP?

9. IF SOMEONE WITH MULTIPLE PERSONALITIES THREATENS TO KILL HIMSELF, IS
IT CONSIDERED A HOSTAGE SITUATION?

10. IS THERE ANOTHER WORD FOR SYNONYM?

11. WHERE DO FOREST RANGERS GO TO "GET AWAY FROM IT ALL?"

12. WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU SEE AN ENDANGERED ANIMAL EATING AN ENDANGERED
PLANT?

13. IF A PARSLEY FARMER IS SUED, CAN THEY GARNISH HIS WAGES?

14. WOULD A FLY WITHOUT WINGS BE CALLED A WALK?

15 WHY DO THEY LOCK GAS STATION BATHROOMS? ARE THEY AFRAID SOMEONE WILL
CLEAN THEM?

16. IF A TURTLE DOESN'T HAVE A SHELL, IS HE HOMELESS OR NAKED?

17. CAN VEGETARIANS EAT ANIMAL CRACKERS?

18. IF THE POLICE ARREST A MIME, DO THEY TELL HIM HE HAS THE RIGHT TO
REMAIN SILENT?

19. WHY DO THEY PUT BRAILLE ON THE DRIVE-THROUGH BANK MACHINES?

20. HOW DO THEY GET DEER TO CROSS THE ROAD ONLY AT THOSE YELLOW ROAD SIGNS?

21. WHAT WAS THE BEST THING BEFORE SLICED BREAD?

22. ONE NICE THING ABOUT EGOTISTS: THEY DON'T TALK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE.

23. DOES THE LITTLE MERMAID WEAR AN ALGEBRA?

24. HOW IS IT POSSIBLE TO HAVE A CIVIL WAR?

25. IF ONE SYNCHRONIZED SWIMMER DROWNS, DO THE REST DROWN TOO?

26. IF YOU ATE BOTH PASTA AND ANTIPASTO, WOULD YOU STILL BE HUNGRY?

27. IF YOU TRY TO FAIL, AND SUCCEED, WHICH HAVE YOU DONE?

28. WHOSE CRUEL IDEA WAS IT FOR THE WORD "LISP" TO HAVE "S" IN IT?

29. WHY ARE HEMORRHOIDS CALLED "HEMORRHOIDS" INSTEAD OF "ASSTEROIDS"?

30. WHY IS IT CALLED TOURIST SEASON, IF WE CAN'T SHOOT AT THEM?

31. WHY IS THERE AN EXPIRATION DATE ON SOUR CREAM?

And... WHY DO KAMIKAZE PILOTS WEAR HELMETS?

Sunday's Sequel

To continue where I left off last time ...... I believe that as I was growing up I had no interest in school...it was just a way to meet girls and play sports....and today I was thinking that because I did not have any motivation during those school years to study to push myself to do more than get a barely passing grade...I think that is why I am at where I am at today (referring to job and life). I am not putting down all people who clean but as I look back it sure as hell is not what I would have hoped to be doing when I grew up. Self esteem issue here...hmmm maybe ...just more of the attitude coming out of what it going on in my head on a daily basis. Also, with reference to life. I did not push myself as a kid growing up, so I do not push myself now when I am all grown up (hmmm). I also realize it is not too late to change the way things are...Just like mind games can drag us down into senseless pity parties our minds can also lead us to do so much more than we could probably imagine. There was a book out a few decades ago called The Power of Positive Thinking"...and I do think that those positive thoughts that we capture can make all the difference in the world in our daily life. Just like the negative thoughts will do the same only take us in the opposite direction ......makes me wonder here (some will be reading this next line and thinking what an idiot - like I care - strictly opinion here) I wonder if people who suffer from depression are those who struggle a lot with negative thoughts that they are dealing with or not dealing with now, or a bunch of negative shit they went through when they were young, (my mini sermon on depression - just F'n tired of our "take a pill for whatever the F ails you" mentality). I, for one, am not the type to go and read a self-help book, I believe we can do anything if we set our minds to it, you don't need a book to tell you what you already know. So having said that, I am still back at square one, at least until I decide whether to act on any of those daily questions in my head. It's like the participaction commercial from years ago...Don't just think about it, do, it , do it. I need that motivation, I need that challenge, that sense of "I can do it, and I will prove it attitude. I will update as I decide whether or not to act out what I think would be for the better. Feel free to comment, tell me where to go, or give some motivational speech ;)

Thursday's Thrust

Back to the blog on motivation. Can I? Can I? Can I do anything??? (lose weight, be happy, be positive, be less negative, eat healthier, save money, quit smoking, etc etc etc) Damn right. There are things I think about daily and I constantly ask myself whether or not I can do this or that? Every time... okay probably 90% of the questions I come up with the answer is Yes I can. Soooooooooo the question is why do I choose not to do these things...most of which are good for me. Laziness, fear, lack of motivation, could be any one or a combination of any of those answers...I am guessing mostly lack of motivation. I honestly believe that we play so many mind games with ourselves that we are our worst enemy most of the time. Growing up...think back now..did you get positive or negative thoughts/encouragements from parents, teachers, siblings, friends, etc. Did they say hey dumb ass you won't amount to much, or were they saying, You can do and be anything you want in this world. My parents never said anything negative, at the same time I don't remember a lot of "positive" comments...but I knew they wanted what was best for me. To be continued, I still need to say so much more on this topic.